Trust me, its not the end of the world if your parents get divorced and I have realized that now that I have grown into a hardworking 21 year old women.

When I was in fifth grade my parents got divorced. I can remember the day my dad broke the news to me like it was yesterday. Honestly starting to write this may bring back some memories, but it’s okay, because like I said having divorced parents is okay. 

When my family split up I felt like I turned into the mini mom. At the time I did not like all the responsibilities I had but I feel as it has shaped me into who I am today. My family seriously took on a big change and it was hard for all of us.

The divorce was bad, and I remember how stressed my father was, and even thinking about it breaks my heart. My dad was so stressed with the breaking of our family and I feel as if that reflected on me. 

I have a huge heart, sometimes I almost feel like its too big. I literally feel people’s emotions. I remember when my dad told me that he was not going to be with me every day and that we would switch off days with my mom. I ended up moving in with my dad fully because I hated the switching off and it brought us to become BEST FRIENDS.

At the time don’t get me wrong I absolutely HATED the idea of not being with both parents but I needed to feel like I was all in one place. I loved my parents, both of them and I did not want this to make me distant from either of them.

I did not expect my family to turn into the Brady bunch but it sure did as I already had three of my own siblings. Later down the road my parents both found happiness with different people who had kids. The joining of our families I also hated but looking back on it now I am fine with it.

I was able to become more independent at a young age. I took on a lot like a sister. I had to guide my sisters down the right road because I love them so much. My brother is older than me so he of course helped me but we all really got closer to us siblings because of this.

So at the end of the day, its okay if your family goes through a hard time because trust me no love can truly be broken like family.

Today I am 21 years old and I adore every single person in my family no matter what has happened. I thank god every day that I have siblings because they have seriously been with me through it all.

I have never been as stressed I am with classes as I am now. Due to COVID-19 colleges were closed which left school to stream online. The change was rather big, and at first I did not realize how overwhelmed I was going to end up. So if I haven’t caught your attention yet, trust me, if you feel this way you are not alone.

Part of my major is a writing and English sequence so a majority of my classes involve essays. I feel as if I haven’t left my laptop, and as I write this blog I am currently running on no sleep due to my allnighter from my English classes! I have never wanted felt as stressed as I do in school as I do now.

I strive to do well and I feel like I try to balance a lot which can be part of my problem, so again if you are still reading you are not alone ! How I handle my stress is by mapping out everything I am going to do that day. I feel as if I did this in regular classes but with the shift to online I am constantly feeling anxious because my email goes off every second.

trust me this blog gets positive…just keep reading ..

or swimming as Dory would say. (Que the laugh)

The positive feeling about this work is that after I complete an assignment I feel so proud. I almost feel like I annoy my father because he has never had to read more of my work than he does now. Every morning I come down and read him my essays because I feel so proud. I love when my father sees my work because making my parents proud truly makes me feel good.

I guess you can say I try to impress my parents, but hey who doesnt?

My dad rewards me with dinner everynight so I guess I cant complain about being home from actual face to face classes because although I am stressed I am finding postive in my stressed as I do always.

I guess its okay to feel a little overwhelmed because in the end it will all be worth it. I cannot wait to start a career and feel like I made it.

Does anyone feel like music speaks to them?

I often feel that the music I listen to always has some kind of message. Lately I have been really digging into lyrics, and the lyrics I have been analyzing is Logic’s song which is titled with the suicide hotline number. The songs title speaks, as do its lyrics. I am sure we have all felt down at times, so its almost comforting when we find something that relates. This song doesn’t necessarily relate to me, but it relates to anyone that has ever felt extremely down, which is a category I fall into. A song I listen to when im down is Logic’s “1-800-273-8255”. The song is beautifully written, and hits very strong for anyone who has ever felt these emotions. Music is something that eases the mind, and these lyrics are so powerful. Logic sings about not wanting to be alive, but ends the song with the drive and urge to live. The song will forever be a favorite of mine, and if you want to know what its all about check this out.

In Logic’s song, titled, 1-800-273-8255, Logic talks about his experiences dealing with problems that many people go through. The rapper with singers Khalid and Alessa Cara focus on the struggles of someone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts. He sings about what people may go through, along with giving people reasons to live and not to kill themselves. When he sings each lyric it sends extreme emotion to the listener through his powerful words. Throughout the song , Logic illustrates the struggle of feeling suicidal thoughts, as well as giving reasons to live. He ends the song with a positive note, but it overall sends out a powerful message.

 The song makes you WANT to understand each lyric. In the song 1-800-273-8255, Logic sings “I don’t want to be alive, I don’t want to be alive, I just want to die today, I just want to die, I don’t want to be alive, I don’t want to be alive, I just want to die, now let me tell you why.”  Logic grabs the listeners attention through extreme lines. He does this before explaining why someone might feel this way. When he starts off says these intense lines it draws the listener in to want to know more about this feeling.  The way he sings the song causes the listener to listen to every lyric thoroughly. He focuses on all aspects on what someone may be going through.  He goes into depth about how a person may feel saying, “all this other shit I’m talking ‘bout they think they know it, I’ve been praying for somebody to save me, no one’s heroic.”  In these line he is expressing the need to be saved. His lyrics relates even if you haven’t felt this way because of the emotion through the song.

In addition, singer Alessa Cara sheds light on why someone may want to live. She says,  “It’s the very first breath when your heads been drowning under water, and it’s the light that’s in the air when you’re there, chest-to-chest with a lover.  Its holding on though the roads long seeing light and the darkest things.”  The singer here opens up a new idea. She is intending to making the listener feel hope. The hope is what is so beautiful about this song. Logic also supports Alessa at this point. Logic as well at this point in the song is showing compassion for the listener and explaining that he and many other people have been in the same situation as well. Logic encourages the listener that it is okay. He says,  “I know where you been, where you are, where you’re going…what’s the day without a little night?  I’m just tryna shed a little light.  It can be hard, it can be so hard, but you gotta live right now, you’ve got everything to give right now.”  Logic is encouraging his listener to keep moving. He acknowledges that it can be hard, but he urges that “you gotta live right now, youve got everything to give right now”. The song hits differently for anyone who has ever felt this emotions. His words of encouragement are so strong because he just went from wanting to die, to wanting to be alive. It sends the listener the message that there is hope. It is very comforting.

The song then ends with the lines “but I don’t want to cry, I don’t want to cry anymore, I wanna feel alive, I don’t even wanna die anymore.  Oh, I don’t wanna, I don’t wanna, I don’t even wanna die anymore.  The song goes from a person who wants to commit suicide, to a person who wants to live and change peoples views. The message right there is so powerful. By the end of the song you are feeling hope. The whole mood, and tone change. Logic goes from screaming rapping, to embracing the beauty of life. His mind has changed at the end of the song, which leaves hope for anyone in this position. The significance of the title is also something I analysed. The song is supposed to comfort those who have felt like this, and the number is a suicide hotline. The song title itself speaks that it helps. This song is beautiful for anyone facing a hard time, or anyone who enjoys meaningful lyrics.

Logic’s message is so powerful. I think this song speaks to anyone who has ever felt this.

Who remembers the first time they saw Matilida and felt amazing after? Spoilers are ahead, so if you havent seen the greatest movie of all time.. CAUTION moving forward.

1. Matilda is technically a super hero- Her magic powers that are put to use on her evil principal and parents make her the best little superhero of all time.
2. Miss Trunchbull- The most terrifying principal of all time. The thrill she brings when she comes into the movie is incredible. The chokey and the Hammer throw are just two ways Miss Trunchbulls character makes for the best terrifying principal.
3. Bruce Bogtrotter and the chocolate cake- The cake scene brings a rebellion that makes you want to jump in. “BRUCE, BRUCE, BRUCE”.
4. The one liners- “No more Miss Nice girl!” “Your mommy is a twit!” are just the most memorable lines from the film.
5. Independent- What other film makes you want to be an independent as Matilda? Her trips to the book store, and her urge to start school are just two small moments that shape her character.
6. Miss Honey- Who doesn’t want Miss Honey as their teacher? The sweet Miss Honey was Matilda ray of sunshine. She turned her world around for the better.
7. The soundtrack is the best !

“I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think its the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. Its probably the most important thing in a person”. Audrey Hepburn

1. Laughter makes us healthier- Its important not to take life too seriously. We all have obstacles in life that and sometimes we make mistakes. Its important not to beat yourself up over the little things. This also applies to other people. Try not to be hard on others. – a smile and a laugh can go a long way.
2. Find the humor in a bad situation- Of course there are situations where laughing is not the answer, however finding the humor in a bad situation doesn’t hurt. Nothing is better than making someone laugh right after they finish crying. It is one of the best feelings.
3. Remind yourself of funny moments from the past- Perhaps you are feeling down. It doesn’t hurt to think of funny moments from your past. A little laugh throughout the day can go a long way.
4. Surround yourself with fun people- Laughing is contagious. Its important to surround yourself with people who make you happy and feel alive.
5. Laughter relaxes the whole body- A good hearty laugh relieves physical tension and stress. Laughter is like medicine !

Being a older sister has shaped me into who I am.

1. Set a good example– When it comes to having younger siblings its important to keep in mind that they constantly are looking up to you. Whatever you do, expect your sister to want to follow, so make sure you are always making the right choices. I try to set a good example for my sisters by doing well in school, having a healthy eating schedule, and staying organized.
2. Share- When you have siblings it is important that you share. I understand my parents work very hard to maintain my younger siblings so anytime I can pass down old clothes, or anything valuable of mine I always do.
3. Guide- Being an older sister can be tough because its important to guide your sisters in the right direction. Sometimes it sucks being the “mean” one, but if you feel a loved one is falling off track, especially a younger sibling its important to guide them and it some cases constructive criticism.
4. Support– Although sisters look up to you they also have a mind of their own of course. Its important to support your siblings in decisions that they make. Of course look out for their best interest, but always provide love and support.
5. Be confidante- Show your sisters that they have a shoulder to cry on. Its important to act strong to your younger ones, for they always are looking up to you. Be someone they can come to with problems. You are their partner in crime.
6. Talk through any issues– Fights are bound to happen, its only normal. Give your sisters the chance to say their concerns, and listen to them.
7. Compromise- If you both want the same shirt, let it go. You can borrow, you can share. It is always better to compromise.
8. Encourage them- If you sisters are feeling down, cheer them up. You are their light. They may not come to you when they are down, but your love is always wanted.
9. Surprise them- Surprising them with gifts on their birthdays or holidays will show them how much you care for them.
10. Say I love You– Remind your sisters everyday how much you care for them. Tell your sisters you love them. If you find the words “I love You” strong or uncomfortable then show them. Actions speak louder than words.

1. Mental Well being- sitting out by the water calms the soul. If you have ever sat staring at the ocean, just embracing the fresh air, and beautiful view you will be able to understand how relaxing it is for the soul. Sometimes you feel at peace most when you just embrace life’s beauty’s around us.

2. Fresh air– Most people work inside, or work with numbers, or do crazy jobs every day. A nice breath of fresh air, and an atmosphere outside of work never hurts.

3. Beach ice cream– Who doesn’t love a nice ice cream on the boardwalk? I feel as if vacations are when we treat ourselves the most~Sometimes its the little things in life.

4. Rest and Renewal- While most people say vacations drain you, id argue that it gives you rest and renewal. After a nice long day at the beach a relaxing shower is the best. After the shower I feel fresh and renewed. I am able to reminisce about the beauty of my day.

5. Exploring the ocean – There are many ways you can explore the ocean on vacation. Boat rides, Jet skis, tubing ect. Exploring the ocean is the best part of the trip .. If you arent scared of waves!

My family has owned dogs my whole childhood, and I am forever grateful I was blessed into a dog loving family. I have had many dogs throughout my years of growing up, and I have formed a love greater than no other.

1. A dog turns a house into a home– Whats better than walking into your house to get smothered with puppy love? A dog brings that warmth to your heart that no other animal can. A dog is constantly there to greet you, and bark at you goodbye.
2. Motivate you to go on walks/runs- THIS IS NOT A LIE. Ever since I have owned a puppy, I find myself going on more walks/ run. It is a great way to form a bond with your puppy, while working out !
3. Constant cuddles- A puppy is always there to give you love. Whenever I am feeling down, or out of it I know I have that positive energy from my dog. A little bit of cuddles never hurt.
4. A dog makes you feel safer in your home- Dogs are like built in security systems, or at least mine are! Unfamiliar noises put dogs on high alert. As soon as a dogs ears perk up, you know something has caught their attention.
5. A dog will be incredibly loyal to you and your family-Dogs constantly want attention and love from their family. The best feeling is your dog knowing who YOU are. They never fail to put a smile on dog lovers faces.

I always wonder what my generation would be like if we didn’t have cell phones, and I feel as if I got a glimpse of that this week because my phone has been broken.

Not having a phone for a week was like a breathe of fresh air. Of course, I was rather frustrated mine broke, but with all the chaos because of the Pandemic that was the least of my worries. I turned my phone breaking into something positive. I spent a week away from snap chat, Instagram, and even texting. I took the social media break and I feel like it made me feel very free.

It was almost the perfect time for my phone to break because I am home from school with my family ( the people who would need to get in contact with me.) Without having a phone I did not find myself wasting anytime throughout my day. I Found myself more engaged in conversations with my family, and I found that I was not worried about anything going on on social media at all. I found that I was only worried about what I was doing.

I of course knew the no phone could not last due to work, and my everyday responsibilities, but a week away from my phone took me away from what goes on in the social media world. It took me away from small distractions throughout the day. I almost feel like I belong in a generation where social media does not exists.

I truly believe that organization is key to a healthy life style. I have always always held this belief strong to my heart because I feel as if it is so important. Staying organized is something I feel makes me feel at peace with myself. I hate when I cant find something, or my room is out of place because I feel like it puts a damper on my whole day and makes me feel a mess!

So, in order to keep away from frustration and bad days due to lack of organization I follow these five rules to stay as organized as I can.

1. Keep a planner- I have kept a planner from as young as the first grade ! I truly feel as if id be lost without one. In my planner, under each day of the week I have something I want or need to do for that specific day. I have specific times for each thing I have to do on that day, and I feel that when I look at my planner every morning and throughout my day it helps me complete the tasks I need to get done.
2. Keep a checklist- Keeping a check list is similar to a planner, but it something I like to have to feel productive at the end of each day. I try to complete each task on the list that I make in the morning, and every time I do I end up feeling so accomplished.
3. Make your bed in the morning- This is something SO simple, and I am sure many people already live by this, but making my bed is the first thing I do in the morning, and I truly feel it starts off my day the right way. I love coming
4. Make sure your phone/laptop is charged ALL the time- I HATE if I wake up forgetting to have charged my phone or laptop. I hate this because then when I leave for work or class I feel so disheveled. I now make sure I make a “charging station” in my room for my phone and laptop before I go to sleep.
5. Keep a healthy eating schedule- With work, and class sometimes its hard to remember how important it is to eat throughout the day. I usually start my morning with a smoothie because it fills me up until about 2 when I eat lunch. I try to eat in the morning, afternoon, and then of course dinner. When I keep a healthy eating style I feel very organized and overall more productive.

Thus, I find a organized lifestyle leads me to overall be happier. I love ending my day knowing I have everything in place, and am managing to keep a productive organized day. I follow these five rules to stay on track, and I find they are very helpful.